You would NEVER look at a first responder with a limp or a missing limb or a wound and think “you have no value, you shouldn’t be here.” Yet we are walking with invisible wounds, living inside them everyday, and we tell ourselves the most horrible things.
There is that quote, “Show me your friends and I will show you your future.” It’s also true, show me your friends and I will show you the depth of healing you’ll achieve.
I am learning something so substantial, so weighty in all of this, that God sees the brokenness inside me and his response is not to shame me, his response is to remind me of who I am and to remind me of what actually matters. Because, deep deep deep inside of us, what sin has broken isn’t our perfection, it’s our identity. It has broken who we are. Our souls. Our cells.
I found this coin when I was 10 years old. I was camping about an hour east of Seattle, deep in the mountains, and as I walked barefoot through the camp sites I suddenly felt something underneath my feet that seemed out of place. I looked down to see a square coin, and couldn’t believeContinue reading “I Collect Dead, Dying Things. I Collect Brokenness.”
I’ve heard God doesn’t make mistakes. I’ve heard it is impossible… Everything about you. Your nationality, your skin color, gender, hair texture. How expressive or reserved you are. How introverted or extroverted you are. Your ability to sing or create art or to fearlessly barrel race horses. Your laugh. NONE OF IT IS A MISTAKE.Continue reading “God Doesn’t Make Mistakes, So It’s Impossible For You To Be One”
I took a walk to the sea-salt water with my daughter today. She is 9 months old. And a year ago, when I first learned I was having a daughter, fear overwhelmed me. Because I had deep dark scars and mothering a girl terrified the still-broken parts of me. We walked along the road. MercyContinue reading “A Mighty Work: The Beginning, Part 1”
No matter your story, no matter the type of abuse or level of abuse you might have endured, all sin wounds. And simply because all sin wounds, there is grief in the world. Here it is: the truth about pain: it must be grieved before it can be gone. Brokenness doesn’t go away. It mustContinue reading “From Victim to Healed: The Journey of Lament”
Life is full of lessons. Some lessons change you for the better. Some…some you wish you’d never learned. These are the hardest moments in life. These are the moments that teach you to cling to our Heavenly Father in ways you never knew you could. 1. The people you love the most, will hurt youContinue reading “5 Lessons I Wish I Hadn’t Learned About Abusive People”
Several years ago, I read this quote, “It’s ok to live a calm life.” I loved those words so much that I typed them up and printed them out and placed them in a frame, and there they lived for the next three years, on the wall beside my bookshelves. I never once moved thatContinue reading “Finding a Life You Love”